Two years of change. I want to say that I knew I was so skinny, but no I don’t think I did. I also want to say I love myself more that I’m a little thicker. But that’s not true either. Truth is... I have struggled with the fact I had gained so much weight over the past two years, it hit almost 20lbs of weight more then what I was in the pic on the left. But my life has been different from that left side, the gym hasn’t been a daily priority, my diet has been really enjoying my foods and if I’m being honest eating what ever the hell I want to. I think I have needed that for a while to actually gain this weight and really look more healthy. I didn’t think I looked sick at this smaller size, but seeing this picture pull up today now I feel like I looked soooo small. But In all honesty I wish I could merge my favorite parts about my body in each picture together and I would be happy. But I am trying to remind myself these days that being happy isn’t in what you look like, I’ll never find happiness in being skinny or having a perfect body. So why not love myself no matter where my body is at. And honestly I do love me. I have my days of bad body image and feeling down on myself, but that’s every person in the world. No matter if they are what society says is perfect, they struggle too. Every single person struggles with loving you their body fully. So all you can do is talk kind to yourself and work on your mindset to change the way you feel. I’m trying to be all motivating and show some vulnerability in this post to show people that everyone struggles in their own ways.